Dear Sylas,
You’re fresher at this, so maybe you can explain: are we born wanting to pair ourselves off? Is it built into us or have we just learned from the world around us, from our parents, our aunts and uncles, our grandparents, from the things people don’t think we understand right away?
We do it though. We spend our lives wanting to do it, at least: spend moments with others- months, nights, the rest of our lives, whatever comes after. We feel bad when it is not happening, try to think of what’s wrong with the pairings we somehow have managed to succeed at.
You still barely see shapes. Blurry things. This doesn’t quite change when it comes to human couplings. Once we grow up and can see shapes, though, see that others are either together or apart, does it matter if that desire was there to begin with? Whether we grew into it or knew it right away, it’s there.
I bought my friends a round of beer, and I took away keys from a friend who may have had too much to drink, and I babysat you when your parents were at work. But, still, I have not loved anyone in a while, Sylas, and I’d like your help to figure out how such a thought can come to pass through my head, and how it is I came to understand such a thought.
